I am....

I am ...
beat ...
wiped out ...
tired,
shaky ...
worn out to my very
blonde bones.

I over did it, I pushed too hard, I tried to make up for too much lost time from work while I was in Montana without connections. I didn't allow myself enough rest time yesterday/last night.

I tried to be a Super Sized Sprite instead of my normal size two.

I woke up to catch my flight to Florida.

I felt weak.

I passed out.

... and then ... by the time I recovered ... it was too late to catch my flight, which required a 3 hour drive to get to the airport.

(next time I'm going to be a smarter blonde girl and get a hotel room in the area for the night before)

I'd be more mad at myself (I know ... my grammar ... but my brain is MIA at the moment and the rest of me is over tired and shaky from ... forgetting to eat) if it weren't for the simple fact that my getting out and exploring the world with more consistency the way I have these past several months is a part of the miracle of my life. Of the recovery of my life. It's a beginning I plan to see succeed.

I have to look at the positive, because the negative will only defeat progress of my future goals ... and I choose to only succeed.

It's so important to look within and put your focus on what you *can,* do not what you can't do! Negative thinking only leads to more negative thinking and there is never any victory in anything negative. It'll only wear out your brain.

More Montana and the Florida mis-adventure, the rude United Customer Service rep that now has a note in his files, the six hours of back and forth phone calls to get a new reservation made and United's apology after I get some serious rest. Can you believe after ALL THAT my work night ended with a client I had previously blocked for harassment somehow getting through to me JUST to be rude and harass me AGAIN?

*sighs*

I need to have a long term engagement with my bed.

Nighters all.

*hugs*